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Am I the only one who thinks the other Ashley ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) asherangel if a fucking ASSHOLE and VERY rude? And I mean OOC, not IC.
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[29 Apr 2002|01:55pm] |
check out muh purdy colors!!!
mkay, so i'm not gay, buh, why would it mattah?!?!?!? jeebuz
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[28 Apr 2002|02:04pm] |
muh name ish ashley angel and i'm GAY!
yup, you heard me
MWAHAHAHAHA >.
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[13 Apr 2002|06:55pm] |
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God... I can't do anything right anymore can I? I've barely been able to sleep, practice is killing me. AND to top it all of, I'm sick. Influenza or for you people who don't know what it is... it's the Flu. When I'm freezing I sweat, when I'm hot I've got goosebumps. My whole body is so physically dead right now. Feels like I should just die now. Yet I have to go to practice. And Kirsten's last entry killed me. I feel so helpless. So pointless. But what I told her was true.... now I'm going to go crawl back in bed. Just thought I should update.
~Ash~
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| Ashley is very much alive..... |
[10 Apr 2002|06:30pm] |
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Ashley is going to talk in third person right now because he's one timed dumbass. Ashley has been getting his ass kicked singing and dancing everyday. Ashley doubts you people do that. Ashley's very exhausted and Ashley feels like dying half the time. Ashley has now taken over Jacob's SN CrazyRebelRocker so feel free to IM me but ask first who it is. Cause it may not always be me.... That is all, Ashley is going to crawl back in bed. Night.
~Ashley~
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| *shoves head under the pillow* maybe I should just suffocate myself... |
[04 Apr 2002|09:49pm] |
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I can't do this... I can't do this...
I'm back in Orlando, back to practice and the Mikes and Jacob are getting on my nerves once again.
It's so stressful. I fall into bed every night praying for the day when we'll have break. I think we're gonna break before tour. But I don't know.
And Kirs... god I love her so damn much. But I just don't see how this can work. I now long distance deals suck. That's why Shelli and I never worked. But then again, close ones don't either. I want this so much to work. But she's so sad and lonely there. As am I down here. I'm always so tired.
I just don't know anymore. Yes Kirs and I are still together... but... ( see for yourself )
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[01 Apr 2002|12:20pm] |
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I'm so worried about Kirs right now, it's not even funny. I miss her so much, and she misses me. And her most recent update kinda scares me. She's so sad. I want to back up but I can't because of practice and I can't miss any more of it. The Mikes surely would have my head. Nor could she come down here. After what happened last time... she wouldn't dare come back. Back to practice. The Mikes are hovering.
Be on later.
~Ash~
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| I'M HOME!!!!! |
[30 Mar 2002|11:07pm] |
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*worships room* *kisses bed* I'm home! I'm home! I'm HOME!!!!!! I'm gonna go shower and love on my bed. My big ass bed. I've decided. I'm taking over Jacob's SN so make sure to IM me on CrazyRebelRocker
*nods* mine is boring..anyway.. time to go sing in the shower.
Noah aka Tpyos ana Monkey Man - Hey man! Too bad I can't come harass you anymore. But you gotta come down here sometime. Seriously! Orlando is great!
Kirs - Hey I'm sorry I didn't get to say good bye before I left... I'll call you soon.
That is all!
Night,
Ashy
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| *smiles a little* so... we're better I hope... |
[28 Mar 2002|10:30pm] |
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Kirsten and I talked today. And I felt so bad. I feel like the worst boyfriend ever... Even after talking to her I still do.
She doesn't know how much she means to me. But everything reminds her of her ex Tim. The fact that I am bi REALLY doesn't help much either. I'm sorry I didn't tell her sooner. But I can't help what God makes me feel for both sexes. *shrugs* There is no changing that. And I'm not afriad to admit it. Yes, I like guys. But Kirst is my world right now. And i love her. . .
( Sweetness - Jimmy Eat World )
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| Well, it's out... *shrugs* |
[27 Mar 2002|05:46pm] |
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(OOC: Yeah yeah yeah, you all know I'm Jake too.... so here this might explain the rest of it.
LjKirstenDunst: Jake!
CrazyRebelRocker: hey.
LjKirstenDunst: How are you?
CrazyRebelRocker: I'm good
LjKirstenDunst: That's good
LjKirstenDunst: Miss Ash yet?
LjKirstenDunst: I've taken him from you guys for a week *evil giggle*
CrazyRebelRocker: I'm too busy.. sides.. I hear he's spent the last two night hanging with Noah Bastian
LjKirstenDunst: Yeah, nights but he's been around here during the day
CrazyRebelRocker: heh.... you know... I don't think you know something about him...that you really should know
LjKirstenDunst: Okay?....
CrazyRebelRocker: Want to know?
LjKirstenDunst: Yessir
CrazyRebelRocker: ashley is.... bi.
CrazyRebelRocker: ...Kirsten?
LjKirstenDunst: Yeah?
CrazyRebelRocker: did you get what I said?
LjKirstenDunst: Okay...yeah...a little shock there
LjKirstenDunst: *nods*
CrazyRebelRocker: Well... here's another shock
LjKirstenDunst: *looks down, putting head in hands* What is it with me, am I not good enough for him that he needs a guy or something?
LjKirstenDunst: *sighs*
LjKirstenDunst: I told him....no I promised him I wouldn't hurt him
CrazyRebelRocker: ...I.....I uh... was ashleys boyfriend for a little while... but I've gon straight... and I don't know about him.... but I think He's still half crooked
LjKirstenDunst: *nods a little*)
Hey... well... here....
CrazyRebelRocker: Hey Kirs
LjKirstenDunst: Hey Ash
CrazyRebelRocker: whatcha doin?
LjKirstenDunst: Where were you last night, I thought you'd come home earlier *sits down* Oh, I'm not doing anything really
CrazyRebelRocker: I was with Noah again... why?
LjKirstenDunst: I was just wondering
CrazyRebelRocker: okay...
LjKirstenDunst: You weren't home til later, and I was honestly just wondering
CrazyRebelRocker: what's up with you.. something wrong?
CrazyRebelRocker: Kirs?
LjKirstenDunst: Hmm?
CrazyRebelRocker: You seem upset.. what's wrong?
LjKirstenDunst: No, I'm fine
LjKirstenDunst: Really, just a bit cranky *shrugs*
CrazyRebelRocker: Why... you can tell me anything..
LjKirstenDunst: I know...
CrazyRebelRocker: Kirsten.. you're hiding something
LjKirstenDunst: It's nothing, don't worry about it
LjKirstenDunst: I need to talk to Tim where the hell is that boy when I need him
LjKirstenDunst: No I'm not, I'd tell you, really I would
CrazyRebelRocker: KIRSTEN. Something is wrong. I know... i can feel it
LjKirstenDunst: *looks away*
LjKirstenDunst: *whispers* I never knew you were bi
CrazyRebelRocker: *drops head* let me guess, jacob told you?
LjKirstenDunst: *nods*
LjKirstenDunst: He said I should know, which I should
CrazyRebelRocker: I was going to tell you... actually I was thniking of telling you today...
LjKirstenDunst: *nods* I see
LjKirstenDunst: You weren't.....doing anything with Noah were you?
LjKirstenDunst: Please be honest
CrazyRebelRocker: No!
LjKirstenDunst: Yeah
LjKirstenDunst: *looks down*
LjKirstenDunst: I just never knew, that's all
CrazyRebelRocker: I admit.. Noah looks REALLY good. and he knows it...but Kirs...
LjKirstenDunst: *shuts eyes tightly* Yes?
LjKirstenDunst: *still hanging head*
CrazyRebelRocker: I....I..
LjKirstenDunst: What is it Ash?
CrazyRebelRocker: I.....like you... A LOT...
LjKirstenDunst: *nods* I know I know
CrazyRebelRocker: but....
LjKirstenDunst: But what?
CrazyRebelRocker: I....I really don't know how to say this...
LjKirstenDunst: Me either
CrazyRebelRocker: I uh...being bi I like both sexes... and I...I swing... more towards the guys
LjKirstenDunst: I knew this would happen, it's me and I know it
LjKirstenDunst: If you want to break up, just say it, I don't want you to be with me just because I love you and I promised not to hurt you and.....
CrazyRebelRocker: Kirsten...! I have to tell you one more thing before you decide if you ever want to hate me or not...
LjKirstenDunst: I wouldn't ever hate you Ash
CrazyRebelRocker: Kirs... I... I love you...
LjKirstenDunst: *looks up into your eyes*
LjKirstenDunst: I love you too Ash
CrazyRebelRocker: *smiles a little
LjKirstenDunst: I'd never hurt you Ash
CrazyRebelRocker: I don't want to hurt you either... and I'm kind of scared
LjKirstenDunst: Of what?
CrazyRebelRocker: That my mind might control me... and that I would hurt you
LjKirstenDunst: If you do, it's okay, be with who you want to
LjKirstenDunst: I have to go...
LjKirstenDunst: I'll talk to you later
******
You all knew I was bi before so don't let this come as much of a shock to you... I'll be on later..
~Ash~
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All ducks aren't sweet and innocent and you prove that. You have a nasty streak.
Find your inner rubber ducky.
Me the DEVIL?!? I think not. Anyway... I felt like doing that. See ya later!
~Ashy~
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| L,.A. is sure not Florida |
[21 Mar 2002|09:27pm] |
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After the....events yesterday... Kirsten has gone back LA and I have accompanied her for a week. She's really upset. I don't like seeing her like that. Hopefully home will be good for her. I am praying the guys aren't too mad. I gotta go now!
(I hear APA is back? Is this true?)
~Ash~
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[16 Mar 2002|07:16am] |
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I haven't updated in a few days. I've been too drained from practice. I probably haven't been on too much. Jacob's sick. Janie's injured and I'm about to fall over. Isn't life grand? *rolls eyes*
And there goes my update.
~Ashers~
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| *yawns* Morning |
[16 Mar 2002|07:16am] |
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I haven't updated in a few days. I've been too drained from practice. I probably haven't been on too much. Jacob's sick. Janie's injured and I'm about to fall over. Isn't life grand? *rolls eyes*
And there goes my update.
~Ashers~
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[14 Mar 2002|09:53pm] |
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Jake's REALLY getting on my nerves. He needs to breathe or something. He's really sick and has been taking it all out on me. Is it MY fault that he's sick? Just 'cause I'm happy and he's not.... ugh... stupid... I'm gonna go now... I'm exhausted...
~Ashes~
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[13 Mar 2002|06:06am] |
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Feel like running around singing?
Know I'm going to be able to focus on practice?
Want to go into Kirsten's room just to look at her?
Because last night, we finally decided, after much confusion and talking, to be together.
Kirsten - Hey I'll talk to you when I get home from practice!
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| To Kirsten |
[12 Mar 2002|06:04am] |
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I'm sorry... about last night.... I'll talk to you later.
~Ash~
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| To Kirsten |
[12 Mar 2002|06:04am] |
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I'm sorry... about last night.... I'll talk to you later.
~Ash~
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